wow!

i feel so sorry for everyone who hasn’t found their life partner yet 😭 like girl i couldnt live without me how are you guys so strong ! i realised i havent been laying it on thick enough recently so. i need not remind you that i am more stunning than a flashbomb!!! i got 5 hours of sleep last night. okay to be fair this is not my fault, THE PHONE DEMONS ARE KEEPING ME!! its okay. i will sleep well tonight. or i will not. that’s life!

thing #1: chi’s birthday!

yes this is very much like 2 weeks after it BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHI!! i hope you can cherish the memories we made on your special day!!!! as well as the fun little gift-os!!! i apologise that mine came 2 weeks late!!! i also apologise for the presence of racism in our world!!! we really tried to eliminate it before your birthday but like idk we just couldnt make the deadline on time 😭 we’ll get ‘em next time! i was going to include a photo but i am not ready to message everyone so you can just picture it in your head. you’re welcome <3

thing #2: me x consumerism

why am i actually like very capitalist. disclaimer: this claim is based on a very rudimentary understanding of capitalism!! today i spent an hour scrolling through amazon. i should not be trusted with money because like. OKAY NO I UNDERSTAND THAT LIKE THE PAST FEW ISSUES I KEEP TALKING ABOUT MONEY BUT LITERALLY MONEY IS TAKING UP A VERY BIG PART OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!! and ok i really liked my economics lesson today ! thank you livia san for hooking me up with cici!!! i dont understand how people can call it boring like. do i just like money? am i a money lover? OK ITS BC ITS LIKE NOVEL TO ME STILL SOON I WILL LIKE GET SICK OF SPENDING MONEY AND LIKE IT WILL JUST BE LIKE DRINKING WATER YOU KNOW!! i dont know if that made sense. my first amazon delivery arrived today! 

thing #3: eternal jukebox

i might be entertained easily but I GENUINELY THINK THIS IS LITERALLY SO COOL okay wait let me explain. you know wait i need to talk about my explaining first. i feel like i am generally not good at articulating my thoughts so that is why i enjoy being in the presence of people who can mentally autocorrect me. WAIT BUT I ARTICULATED THAT SO WELL SO AM I LIKE im sick of this thought train. back to eternal jukebox. it’s basically this website where you can like put in a song and it will make that song play FOREVER “but nicole, isn’t that just looping?” no!! it like sees points in the songs that are similar and then like jumps in between them so its never like the same song each time you listen. it works better for some songs than others bUT ITS LIKE JUST COOL! LIKE WHO THOUGHT OF THIS? i love creativity. i think people are so cool when they are like not being not cool!!! its funny bc all american b eventually gets to the point where its just olivia rodrigo endlessly screaming! sometimes i like trying to sing along bc it tests like how well i know a song 💀 u have to see how fast u can switch verse and stuff! she looks at life like its a party and shes on the list! she looks at me like im a trend and SHES NOT A SAINT AND SHES NOT WHAT YOU THINK SHES AN ACTRESS ! idk how to explain it that well so just try it out gang! it has to be a song that is on spotify and youtube though. https://eternalbox.floriegl.tech/jukebox_search.html link!

thing #4: gift giving / receiving

gifts are like very much the last on my love language ranking. OKAY DON’T GET ME WRONG I don’t hate giving people gifts!! I very much enjoy that they are happy when I give them gifts!! I just don’t care for the action of giving gifts in general you know?? and like receiving gifts is nice because like yay they care about me!! but also its not like “WOW GIFTS!! GIFTS ARE SO GREAT!!” idk am i like misunderstanding gifts as a love language or? i also hate like picking gifts LIKE SOMETIMES I DO WELL but its annoying that i can’t perfectly like gauge how they will react before i present it you know 😭 i am very much pro wishlist because of this! or like even when people just tell me exactly what they want STOP I KNOW THAT LIKE TAKES THE FUN OUT OF IT BUT LIKE idk i just like knowing they will like it otherwise it stresses me out! idk i just try to avoid it when i can! not for secret santa though!! secret santa is less about the gifts and more about “hm.. who?!” which i very much find amusing! or like birthday parties! because if they are disappointed by my gift at least they have other gifts to look forward to you know!! idk if you guys want anything from me just ask BC LIKE SOMETIMES I WILL SEE STUFF AND THINK “wow xyz would like this!” and then i think “but what if they already have it..” gifts stress me out. ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY ARRIVE LIKE A WEEK LATE. 

thing #5: class of ‘09 - THE FLIP SIDE

OMG THERE’S A NEW CLASS OF ‘09 GAME COMING OUT! I AM NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT THE GAME OR WHY I ENJOY IT BUT I JUST WANTED TO LIKE ANNOUNCE. it’s focusing on jecka!! jecka is like so gang. i am going to play it right when it comes out. especially if it does during exam season. that was a joke. please have more faith in me.. also like i am awaiting an animatic or edit of like the game featuring the parallels between nicole (NICOLE!) and jeremy to the song teenagers by mcr like. IT IS SO FITTING!! my chemical romance is genuinely so good though like i wonder why they picked that name though. it is probably on the internet somewhere but i’d rather come up with my own interpretation because that is simply what would spark more joy! 

thing #6: music

i don’t know why but recently i feel as though my like hearing has improved when it comes to music? like music sounds much better. i am hearing like elements to songs i have played on repeat that i have not heard before. IT’S CRAZY! music is just sounding better recently!!! i like music! okay wait but its also bad though because in olivia rodrigo’s cover of cruel summer, im like hearing more yeah? AND I CAN LIKE HEAR LIKE THIS SQUEAKING NOISE THROUGH OUT NOW. AND ITS REALLY IRRITATING. i can’t listen to it without hearing it anymore 😭 but yeah overall music is sounding nicer!! i can appreciate it more now!! much love to this sudden gift!!

thing #7: morally questionable idea (not really)

OKAY SO YOU WANT TO KNOW IF SOMEONE LIKES YOU BACK? BUT YOU’RE TOO AFRAID TO ASK THEM YOURSELF? this is very serious by the way. YOU NEED TO HIRE A FRIEND TO KIDNAP THEM. well i guess the kidnapping part isn’t like compulsory but it like adds to the certainty of the response and it’s just like the vibe yk?? AND YOU GET THEM TO ACT LIKE A CRAZY STALKER (OF YOU) SO THEY SAY STUFF LIKE “OMG! I CAN’T LET YOU TAKE (YOU) AWAY FROM ME!!! 👹” AND THEN LIKE THE KIDNAPPED IS LIKE “EW.. I DON’T EVEN LIKE (YOU!!!)” and then you know!!!  this is such a good idea i need to patent it. IF THEY DO LIKE YOU THEN IT’S LIKE actually i don’t know what they’d say maybe like “YOU’RE KIDNAPPING ME OVER WHO I LIKE?! YOU’RE INSANE!!” if they like have no survival instinct idk! yeah so like im 99% sure this is foolproof LET ME KNOW IF YOU TEST IT OUT!! (do not try this at home. that’s incest.)

thing #8: japan trip

i am devastated. WHAT IS THE POINT OF SAVING MONEY NOW 😭 I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAVE FOR. I CANT BELIEVE THE EXCHANGE GOT CANCELLED. GANG IT WAS GOING TO BE SO FUN!! and yes i am still doing japanese i wouldnt do it just to go to nihon 😭 BUT LIKE WHAT THE GECK! ive never felt so robbed! i hope you’re ready for japan round 2 soon mischa. IM NOT GOING TO GO TO UNI BEFORE GOING TO JAPAN! I HAVE BEEN EXPECTING A TRIP FOR LIKE YEARS! its ok i guess i am going to be a bit richer for a while longer. I DONT LIKE BUYING STUFF THAT MUCH THOUGH! I AM SURE MY ONLINE SHOPPING PHASE IS GOING TO END SHORTLY! and then I’ll just have money 😭 and it’ll basically be the same as the gecking money i have in my little pony because I WONT USE IT 😭 i havent been on the mlp game in like 3 weeks. it is fun but also i like progressed too fast! omg wait that’s like the negatives of overly high gross domestic product growth (7%) which can cause inflation and in turn cost of living crises! economics is so fun! i could have been a part of japan’s economy. for 3 weeks. 🙁 yes i know i am complaining about but you should be grateful it is actually something worth complaining about instead of my constant “i’m so cold 😔”s! sorry annie !! 

thing #9: maths triangle

hello today my maths teacher drew this masterpiece completely unintentionally 

and i said “omg it looks like a face!!” to mia emerson and he #heard (amber reference!) AND VERY MUCH RAN WITH THE IDEA! this was my favourite maths class! like, ever!

HE ADDED A LITTLE FROWN SO NOW ISOSCELES (I SO SILLY 😆) IS A BIT CRANKY!

AND THEN HE DREW A LITTLE SMILEY FACE IN SCALENE!!

AND ALSO MADE KITE TOTALLY MAD!!! I have grown so much appreciation for him.

AND ALSO THE BEST PART IS HE BEFORE RUBBING OUT THE TRIANGLE DREW A LITTLE UGH OMG IT WAS SO GANG HE DREW LIKE A LITTLE TINY VERSION OF ISOSCELES IN THE BOTTOM CORNER OF THE WHITEBOARD! AND THEN HE DREW LIKE A BUBBLE AROUND THEM AND WROTE ‘PROTECTED ZONE’ !!!! IF ANYONE RUBS OUT ISOSCELES I WILL PERSONALLY FIND THEM AND END THEM!!!! guys if you want to check it out (and go to my educational institution!) it is in the room we (inclusive.) always went to for recess last year!! i dont know what class room. MIA M WAS THERE AS MY WITNESS. SHE ALSO SUPPORTS ISOSCELES!!! MANY THANKS TO HER FOR REMINDING ME MY TABLET HAS A CAMERA! and michelle (gwen) wasn’t there and literally missed out on the birth of the best thing ever. im genuinely obsessed with isosceles (that’s their official name!) i need to start an isosceles cult! ok why did this triangle actually amuse me so much though 😭 im actually like farming joy from it. i love agriculture!

thing #10: economics

ok i might be jumping the gun a little BUT LIKE ECONOMICS IS GENUINELY SO INTERESTING! should i do it next year 😭 i was like considering it but then i discovered the possibilities of investigating for an extended period of time and like NOW I AM CONFLICTED. also i talked to my maths teacher about specialist and now i don’t know like he raised some good points AND HE WAS NICE ABOUT IT TOO like i thought he would’ve been like “um.. are u sure nicole?” but i think i am just trying to project my own insecurities onto everyone i am consulting with to blame them for my own fear of doing specialist!!! yikes ! i will try to stop doing that! omg what if i dropped spesh for economics though like 😭 that sounds so nice. then im literally only doing like 3 difficult subjects instead of 4 you know!! UGH BUT IDK I DONT WANT TO DO THAT AT THE COST OF FUTURE ME. im really scared guys! i guess ill know how i feel about economics by the time we first get the option to change? or like ill see what my teacher thinks on thursday. i will have to make dotpoints istg. STOP OK I FEEL BAD BC I LITERALLY LIKE MY MATHS TEACHER WAS TALKING ABOUT WORK HABITS A LOT BUT THEN I WENT OFF TO TALK TO MIA FOR THE REST OF CLASS LIKE 😭 HE PROBABLY THOUGHT I DIDNT LISTEN TO HIM AT ALL 😭 IM SORRY SIR I DID NOT SLEEP ENOUGH LAST NIGHT!!! NOR DID I TAKE MY RATIONAL SENSE PILLS!! AND HE MADE SO MANY GOOD POINTS BUT 😭 IM SORRY SIR!!!! 

i am really not sure what to do!!! but i am sure you guys are also suffering so that brings me comfort. yes i find solace in your suffering!! i hope that makes u feel better about it! but not so much so that you are no longer suffering because that is not how a good economy should work! get it because economic growth relies on the cycle of consumers consuming more so that producers are incentivized to produce more and in doing so both parties contribute more as tax payers and australia becomes more swag! or something like that! so suffer and we can pay tax together!! it’ll be a fun weekend activity 🥰

isosceles,

nicole (yes i am so silly!!)