greetings,

so it was brought to my attention that my last issue was like pretty short but like i dont think it was that short 😭 like 2000+ words still. but to make up for it i will overcompensate with 3000!!! or not. you’ll have to wait and see! a lot of this was written like a while ago but just take it as THROWBACK FRIDAY!! intro speedrun any% 

thing #1: class

yes im paying attention in class now!! woohoo!!! omg its like not gonna lie more pleasant than just scrolling through ozbargain and reddit during class 😭 well not that much more pleasant but. its crazy how like teachers can teach! okay wait why am i lowkey a nerd they should like send me to nerd school. “you already go to nerd school” SHUT UP. SHUT UP. AND DON’T SNITCH TO 13 YEAR OLD ME. update: um ok i am paying attention in class less now.. OK NO JUST SCIENCE IDK ok wait i was going to add more info but i feel like that is another thing so get edged.. for now.. anyway like why is like mixed bag kind of gang like it might just be because we have a gang in it but like doesnt the gang kind of extends past that? or am i becoming a masochist from ALL THE STUPID DIGGING LIKE. IM SORRY HAIKYUU LOVERS BUT VOLLEYBALL KIND OF SUCKS! why is it genuinely so painful like not even a “haha u hurt me” I HAVE NOT FELT THIS KIND OF PAIN SINCE THE LAST TIME WE DID VOLLEYBALL 😭 

sporting injuries are lowkey a primary school throwback though like. stop you guys are gonna make fun of me but I used to like sit behind the basketball hoop in primary and like the basketballs would always hit me on the head and i would sit there reactionless because beside all the injury-ing that spot was like pretty good (SUN!) but like I feel like all those basketballs hitting me on the head was kind of not good for me like 💀 SOME OF U MIGHT READ THIS AS ME BEING A MASOCHIST BUT I REALLY AM NOT ? MISCHA IS THE MASOCHIST. I have not devoured HALF of the red flags she has. unfortunately I am willing to talk about Mischa on this newsletter because I have discovered YOU GUYS ARE LITERALLY FOLLOWING HER ON INSTAGRAM. STOP FOLLOWING HER YOU STALKERS. You are ruining my gatekeeping.

ALSO! the new semester classes are like freaking me out! I understand I just talked about mixed bag being gang but like BODY BALANCE WAS ALSO GANG OK. okay first, I like economics the subject but IN CIVICS AND FINANCE I USED TO HAVE VIDHI, JESSICA AND MICHELLE (jellyfish haircut)!! on the topic of jessica WE LIKE NEVER SEE EACH OTHER ANYMORE. WE LITERALLY WENT FROM SHARING A CLASS BASICALLY EVERYDAY (civics AND body balance) TO LIKE NOTHING! ive never felt so robbed. I also don’t share a class with annie anymore! and I do with sienna but its Japanese so it doesn’t count (no I am not racist today). to be fair I like now share a class with grace san ! and mia n and chi. yes I do share Japanese with them already but we already established the nation of japan is against counting. I am currently being forced to suffer during mixed bag, knowing jessica is but one flight of stairs away from joining us AND YET SHE IS LITERALLY DOING PLANKS INSTEAD 😭 THIS IS SO NOT GANG ! 

thing #2: nutrition

ok get unedged back to not paying attention in class. i think i actually need to eat more because whenever i pay attention in class it like makes me hungry like am i not eating enough to fuel regular brain behaviour 😭 ITS NOT MY FAULT ive literally been eating the same recess and lunch since prep AND I DIDNT KNOW THAT WAS SO LIKE PROBLEMATIC FOR MY BODY idk i think my list of todos is just eating more and sleeping more and then maybe paying attention in class will be easier!!! but if i have more for lunch i have to like pack more food and like that means i will sleep less you know.. and i don’t want to like constantly rely on the canteen the journey there is too much! maybe i need to get into the addiction to that sushi place STOP I HAD IT FOR LIKE THE FIRST TIME LAST WEEK it was kind of good!!! i can understand why they have such a cult following!

thing #3: subject selections

WHY ARE WE LITERALLY MAKING DECISIONS THAT CAN ALTER THE COURSES OF OUR LIFE RIGHT NOW??? i mean we constantly do that with our everyday actions but AT LEAST WE CAN CHOOSE TO IGNORE THAT. this chemistry vs spesh vs japanese debate is killing me. me and medicine would not be friends. but like WHAT IF ONE DAY I SUDDENLY WITNESS A DOCTOR LIKE SAVING SOMEONES LIFE AND IM LIKE WOW I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR BUT NO. I COULDNT BECOME ONE. WHY? BECAUSE YOUTHFUL ME DECIDED TO PICK TO DO SOME SILLY MATHS. i am frightened 😭 I DONT LIKE SCIENCE. BUT WHAT IF. the uncertainty is like so not gang. ALSO WHY AM I DOING SPESH LIKE I KNOW IT BENEFITS ME KIND OF BUT LIKE CANT I JUST LEAVE THE SUFFERING FOR WHEN I AM OLDER AND THEREFORE WISER. im already so wise though like they should paint me. I hope you are experiencing more/less turmoil than me. you’re not allowed to feel the same amount its my turmoil and im deciding what to do with it 😠

it’s not like i hate chemistry! i just hate science! yes i understand not liking science because of not liking labs is a bit silly but like i just don’t find science interesting. some of it is kind of cool but like i dont want the stupid early access version of the game. they need to hurry up and release the full version because what are they doing right now. scientists should just level up already! but labs genuinely suck because why do they always have to be cold? and why do we have these like dumb chairs? and why are they so white and why do they have that smell and WHY DO I HAVE TO DO PRACS. PRACS ARE ANTI ME!! 10% MECHANICAL ABILITY WAS NOT MADE FOR PRACS. and idk specialist i feel like i could at least find some enjoyment in it. I know I might do well in chem but I also know I won’t be happy doing it! I like maths! It just doesn’t like me! when it does though we will like literally be so gang ! Also I’m like super afraid of japanese now because like mia emerson has like dropped so much lore and yeah its good lore but am I ready to have sleepless nights over it 😰 ALSO UGH THE JAPAN TRIP CANCELLATION IS STILL SHOCKING ME ! I am shocked! I’m also shocked by the amount of people continuing with japanese! well not so much shocked as pleasantly surprised! Yay gang! it also kind of scares me though because what if that means there will be more classes and therefore more chances for me to be alone studying japanese and doing orals with people I DONT KNOW. I’m frightened!

im just generally afraid because like i kind of like all my subjects 💀 that wouldnt be the case if i picked chemistry though. WHAT IF I LIKE THEM TOO MUCH OK LIKE THEN THAT WILL TAKE UP MY ENERGY! i generally avoid doing things I enjoy SO WHAT IF LIKE IM TRYING TO STUDY FOR LIKE OH NO ENGLANG SAC BUT NO I DONT BC LIKE RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH 😠 AND WHAT IF LIKE THIS IS KIND OF LIKE A VARIED PORTION OF MY INTERESTS WHAT IF THESE SUBJECTS LIKE TANK MY INTEREST FOR ALL OF THEM??? THEN LIKE I HAVE JUST LIKE LOST THESE INTERESTS ALL AT ONCE! ITS VERY HARD FOR ME TO GET INTO STUFF!!! is what im saying making sense i dont know if its making sense. idk i just never imagined like enjoying the next two years but like what if i do 😭 that’ll be so weird. this is kind of unrelatable.. sorry med kids.. 

thing #4: fanfiction

i swear i like never read fanfics anymore 😭 has my life really degraded to this level 😭 i am supposed to be a troubled, questionable taste-having teenaged girl not an uncultured freak!!!! ok im actually pretty uncultured either way but i am still rife with vexation. anyway, its kind of crazy but my wattpad account is literally 7 years old this year!! i think i have told people before but ITS STILL SHOCKING TO ME WHY AM I AN AGED WOMAN??? 2017. 2017 WAS 7 YEARS AGO. yeah i was there before wattpad’s logo change. omg i was so mad when they changed it but now i look back im so glad they did because literally what is THAT

today michelle (non-jellyfish haircut one) asked me about the enemies to lovers trope and like she actively dislikes it which is shocking because omg controversy!! personally i think its like idk some of it is good some of it is bad UGH I JUST HATE WHEN THEYRE LIKE STILL FULL ENEMIES AS WELL AS BEING LOVERS LIKE NO THAT BREAKS ALL RULES. IF YOU HATE SOMEONE U SHOULD WANT TO DEPRIVE THEM OF YOUR PRESENCE PLS STAY STRONG VICTIMS OF E2L!!! 

thing #5: past projection of subjects and why it was bad

OKAY ALSO CAN WE ANALYSE WHAT I THOUGHT ID BE DOING LIKE 1 OR 2 YEARS AGO.

LIKE WAS I STUPID? okay no to be fair this isnt that bad. the worst part about it is just literature. I GENUINELY HAD NO REASON TO PICK LITERATURE IDK WHY I THOUGHT ITD BE A GOOD IDEA. LIKE I HAVE SAID BEFORE ENGLISH C HAS BROUGHT ME SO MUCH PAIN ! okay let me describe my relationship history with it. first things first i realised there was a lot of history references in it. that like made it tank like immediately! but then i thought ok theres probably a lot of history in the other englishes too. then like ok wait actually this is like just a free trial. if you want to know the full story behind me and english c’s disorderly dance you can pay a fee of just asking me in person! AND ALSO LIKE VISCOM. OK LIKE I LIKED VISCOM BUT. I WOULD LIKE TO RESTATE MY 10% MECHANICAL ABILITY. I really liked the graphic design portion BUT LIKE UGH MAKING STUFF WITH MY HANDS SUCKS. I don’t think I’m willing to bet my future on my dexterity levels 😭 I was so sure then I’d be doing chemistry too. ALSO I KNEW ID BE DOING SPECIALIST 💀 maybe I am a masochist..

thing #6: chair

okay in before u guys ask me to “just get one from officeworks” no 😭 okay so u might be aware that i got a desk months ago (january..) and it has barely seen any use from me in favour of my bed. oops! but i would like to blame this on my chair like its kind of uncomfortable! i don’t know where to get chairs though. and i’ve asked mr mechelen but he has not responded yet 🙁 should i have introduced myself in the email.. you guys say i overthink emails but I think you just underthink them! Emails are serious!!!! and that’s why you are receiving one about me getting basketballs to the head! speaking about purchases, my amazon package arrived like a week early! i still can’t tell u about the expensive one from a few weeks ago but i can talk about this one! i got some stabilo fineliners 🥰 they’re going to go along well with jennifer’s desk set of stabilo highlighters!! many thanks jennifer!!!!! I also got some drawer organisers on sunday for when I actually start using my desk and therefore my drawer! 

back to chairs, so you know how like I am very much a reddit user? if you don’t you obviously have not sat next to me in class enough or I have made the conscious decision to avoid reddit when I’m near you and honestly that says a lot about you 🙄 /j reddit like gives advice on like everything AND THAT INCLUDES CHAIRS!! which I was relieved to hear until I saw the recommendations were actually like $1k. I am not dropping $1k on a chair! I will discuss them though. So there is the Steelframe leap v2, the hermant miller (I don’t remember how to spell it and I’m not going to check because that is just the way the cookie crumbles.) And the aeron. I think they all have nice names but I would never guess they were names of chairs. Like aeron sounds like a microwave. Please drop chair recommendations gang (that are not from officeworks.) I am in need!

okay i started writing this like right before mr mechelen responded AND LIKE WHY IS HE SO NICE he literally found the chair ! so i am going to ask the chair people if i can buy it!! yippee!! see you never know until u ask!!! u should take my story as a sign for u to ask me if u can give me your life savings!! 

update: ok guys first, the STUPID CHAIR COMPANY DID NOT RESPOND. im so mad. second, I GOT A CHAIR!!! yeah this has been a rollercoaster, i know. omg these are like author’s notes. fanfiction reference 😆 ← foreshadowing.. 🤫 it is the matchspel in grey from ikea 💞 i fell in love with it when i went to ikea with livia san and jessica san!!! so much so that i went back on the same day to get it I BUILT IT TODAY!! and so far i am loving it. ive literally spent more time on my desk today than i have for the past 7 months ive had it. 7 months. how has it already been 7 months 😭

thing #7: tutoring

should I actually get a tutor? I can already hear rachael and grace saying yes 😭 but look hear me out. YOU GUYS LIVE IN THE EAST OK. THERE’S NO CHANCE YOUR TUTORS WOULD BE LIKE idk 😭 gang but in the gang way. I don’t even know where to start finding one because how can I trust they are not going to like idk turn my tutoring into the truman show or something. I UNDERSTAND THAT SOUNDS DUMB BUT ITS A GENUINE CONCERN BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT LIKE REGULATED BY ANYONE. THEY COULD WRITE A REALLY SMALL CLAUSE IN WHATEVER CONTRACT WE HAVE TO SEND THAT I WILL BE MONITORED AND UNDER SURVEILLANCE. Also, tutors are expensive. and how do I know if one suits my learning style if I don’t even know my learning style? group tutoring sounds so scary too and also they give you more work like! I don’t know. can’t I just hire one of you 😭 it’ll like motivate you to get better at idk your subjects so you are giving me, your number one priority in life, an optimal learning experience. you’ll also get money, a chance to solidify your learning and I won’t have to get to know a stranger 🥰 ok this is a /hj but if it’s only half… 😉 

thing #8: stremio

okay like i don’t watch content that much but when i do STREMIO IS GENUINELY SO GANG! okay yes i understand those silly websites exist but stremio can do it without like the buffering!! and with a much nicer user interface!! and 

LOOK JUST LOOK its just really nice being able to scroll through a catalogue of stuff I actually like!! you know I’m starting to realise like I kind of don’t remember the plot of like the barbie movies I didn’t like as much as a kid 😭 OKAY NO THIS IS KIND OF THE SAME PROBLEM WITH MY LITTLE PONY SONGS OK. I KNOW LIKE 90% OF THE MLP SONGS BY HEART but like as a youth I didn’t like around 10% and as a consequence I JUST DON’T KNOW THEM. do you know how painful it is to not have the full soundtrack immediately accessible in me?? its not but I am at the very least mildly offended. I also haven’t watched the entirety of the monster high movies like I probably will eventually.. not for a while though! by a while i mean like 2 years at least. me x procrastinating on watching stuff!!! the ones I have watched are pretty good!! oh my god actually I rewatched boo york boo york a bit ago and why is it kind of bad 😭 LIKE THE SONGS STILL HOLD UP OF COURSE i can still recite them but the plot that is meant to be sad is kind of funny 💀 like i’m not going to spoil it because I know you guys definitely.. have been anticipating watching it for forever now! but wow I genuinely just watched stuff for songs back then! I wish I was more musically inclined ! okay stremio, I can explain it to you in person! but on here I will settle for saying it is like really gang!!!!

thing #9: minecraft story mode

guys. ok the way i was obsessed with these two needs to be studied. i know the topic is minecraft story mode as a whole but i must touch on them first.

OK TO BE FAIR THE GUY ON THE LEFT IS CALLED LUCAS if you didnt know lucas is my number one favourite ICHIBAN SUKINA name (after nicole of course!) so i was already at a disadvantage. omg but petra (the one on the right) kind of fell off in the second game LIKE SHE WERE SO COOL IN THE FIRST LIKE “if you want to find me.. you know where to look” “i don’t.” “exactly” UGH !!!!!!! how do i still remember that i think it was just that kakkoii AND HER VOICE ACTOR TOO omg she literally covered jesse’s behind so much like she basically carried the whole team the first game AND IN THE SECOND GAME THEY LIKE UGH THEY DID HER DIRTY!! idk maybe i need to like go back now and see if i was just too immature to appreciate her ‘self-exploration’ phase BUT LIKE COME ON SHE WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN THAT STUPID AS TO LITERALLY LIKE IDK SHE WAS LIKE JESSE’S NUMBER ONE PROBLEM THAT GAME. anyway the second game isnt canon in my heart so it doesn’t matter. lucas was like so supportive and he was like idk in a friend group full of pricks but still not a prick like he probably shouldnt do that BUT IDK personally i think even if u associate with bad people your character should just be judged on you and not include them. idk if thats a problematic take if it is then like shut up! im not racist today.

the game in itself WAS QUITE GOOD!! if you didnt know minecraft story mode was like made by telltale as a story game based on minecraft ig! idk its like a little cringe but once u get past the initial cringe U CAN ENJOY IT!! all the youtuber references were so enjoyable too like remember when all the mc youtubers were like doing their playthroughs and got to see themselves ingame!!! and i just generally enjoy games with choices. omg all the twists too they were so emotional! i was so upset when it got discontinued bc like.. telltale fell down under.. its okay.. i can always sail the seven seas 🥰 ugh the main problem is no new content though. ACTUALLY IDK HOW THEY WOULD BUILD ONTO THE HORRID SECOND GAME. ok it wasnt that bad but like it was not my vision.. poor petra..

thing #10: plans

yes back to jessica, livia and i’s ikea trip! we were literally there for hours 😭 and found like 5 potential pieces of furniture 😭 anyway if u have been living under a rock we are considering rooming together!! (in game) GANG OK WE ARE PROBABLY GOING TO BE POOR I KNOW but we will be having fun 🥰!!! money DOES buy happiness! AND I FINALLY CONVINCED THEM WE DON’T NEED A STUPID DINING TABLE IMMEDIATELY but we still have to get it eventually they said 🙄 try saying that when we’re completely self-sufficient with a COFFEE TABLE. idk why livia is so stuck on this ps8 thing though like i dont think that will come out on time 😭 WAIT OK i need to talk about ikea food. IKEA FOOD IS LIKE SO BAD in richmond at least WHY IS IT SO BAD? TELL ME WHY? i mean its ok but like THE PRICE UGH! and the fact they like don’t provide water i think. they don’t make it easy if they do 😭 according to livia springvale’s ikea is like a lot better but honestly i don’t know.. how would they be able to improve so drastically when theyre like the same brand! its ok i want to believe that not all ikeas are of that quality so i will! yay!

yes the reading experience was all over the place for this one i know! u have parts from past and present me so i think you should be grateful in that sense. you’re welcome! its actually been a while since i wrote one of these.. oops! it’s ok i like fed u plenty today. thats how hansel and gretel works! u would not succeed at pushing me in the oven though. im too cool for that 😎 GET IT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH. 

im soo funny!

1. nicole 2. lucas 3. idk..